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over and out by Kagay over and out by Kagay
Some kind of vent art yeah.

Well, I'm just tired of some people.
People who force my attention.
People who are always angry with me, no matter what I do.
All I do is wrong to them.
And I just wonder
why do they still want to be my 'friend' in this case?
I don't force them to be my friend.
If they are pissed at me all the time, they can simply leave me alone.
I won't comlpain.
I know that I neglect some people, but I'm just one human who
can't be there for everyone so I have to make decisions.
I've got new friends with the time, people who even handle me like friends.
I took so much care for others during the past and I'm tired of it.
I'm so tired...
It's time to think of me.
People are upset because I don't talk to them all the time.
Maybe it's because I don't have the time, maybe it's because I have nothing to tell to you.
And maybe it's because I don't want .
Yes, maybe it's because I know how it will end up
ending up in getting said that I am the bad one, knowing that my problems
won't interesst you anyway, because it's all about you and your life.
You think you can treat me like that?
You think all I need to take care for is you?
You think I have nothing better to do?
I'm tied, so tired.

I don't mind losing 'friends' who are like that.
I'm better without them.
Less stress.
I'm tired of being the asshole, just leave me alone if you can't handle me anymore .

Sorry for this.
It was on my heart for so long...

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CyrixOkami Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm sorry of people acting like assholes to you you're better off without them believe me I know how you feel when it comes to assholes. T~T I'll be here for you and once I get the paint program fixed on my computer I'll do a picture for you and hug ya ^_^ 
BICCHI-SENPAI Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013
Ich kann jetzt nicht behaupten; "Ich weiß wie du dich fühlst", eben weil Ich es nicht weiß. Trotzdem möchte Ich das du weißt, das du wenige, enge Freunde hast, die Immer für dich da sind - wie zum Beispiel Benji !
Ich finde es frech, das manche User scheinbar deine Aufmerksamkeit so sehr wollen...  Einfach nur traurig!
Ich, zum Beispiel, denke von dir mittlerweile wie eine nette Internetbekanntschaft, die man schon ansatzweise als 'Internet-Freund' beschreiben kann. Ich weiß, das du viel um die Ohren hast, nicht Jeder hat den ganzen Tag Zeit, vor dem Rechner zu sitzen und mit den Usern von Deviantart zu schreiben.
Ich hoffe wirklich, das du alles aussortiert bekommst, das du schlußendlich herausfindest, wer deine wahren Freunde sind, und wer nicht. & Ich hoffe das die User hier endlich mal verständnissvoller werden und verstehen, das du eben auch ein Mensch bist, und keine Maschine die dauernd für die Aufmerksakeit für jeden gottverdammten einzelnden User sorgt.

Trotzdem freut man sich über Jede Nachricht, oder Antwort die man von dir bekommt, daher lohnt sich das Warten für mich Immer, wenn Ich zum Beispiel ein Fanart hochlade. Je länder Ich warte - auf ein Kommentar - Je aufgeregter werde Ich ´_`!
KizuNova Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Awwwww, I am sorry for you! ;-; Here, have a hug :heart:…

(Sorry, thumb did't work ;_; )
SHIROHO Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Sometimes its better to be alone than to be with the people who make you feel alone...
Loneliness doesnt last forever at least. You just need your own time to straighten things out , and perhaps seek new people who can really understand you , and can interact with u on the same level. Be strong like the wolf you are , dont let anyone put u down again.
Emily-Young Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Hobbyist Filmographer
Man...I know what that feels like...I can't be myself because everyone thinks the "real me" is weird. I'm tired of people who make promises and don't keep them. And I'm tired of changing myself to make people like me. Why can't they just accept me for who I am?

Anyway, sorry for the rant, your post just reminded me of why I don't really get along with the world hardly anymore...

Point is, I understand what that feels like...When no one understands you...Or even tries to.
Angelfonds Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Student Digital Artist
AW OMG those mean people! No one should hurt Kagay. Your so kind and awesome. No one should be doing this to you. I never wanted to force you being my friend but I gave you the option of letting us have a chance. That's only because I been through lots of things and I just want others to not feel the pain I have. I'll listen to your story and help you feel better.
Z-A-D-Y Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
arr hun....
maybe we really do need to talk more...
i wish i could say i know as well as i want to know you but in the truth i really don't
but that doesn't change that i can be there for you even if i don't know you all to well.
you may not be a close best buddies friend but i'v talked to you enough to call you a friend, i hope so at least.
but i do wish i could help you more
maybe be someone to talk to
i don't mind listening to anything you want to shout and scream about, shout and scream at me if you must i don't mind at all as long as it makes you feel better.
friends are people who should be there for you, people who listen and at least try their best to help, and if they can't help they will make stupid and silly comments to try and make you laugh and smile instead.

Now if these people cannot see you for the wonderful, kind person you are then screw them, they are worthless anyway if they treat you like you so said.

Chin up hun, always here if you need a chat! <3
Kyoichii Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh Dear... I understand this so much... We're the same, two persons too gentles. And some other people are mad even with that. It just piss me off to see you like this Eri. Really. You don't deserve it AT ALL. You are an awesome friend, and funny~! Seriously.. I want to kill them all for hurt you like that. FUCK! Tch.. They say "yeah all famous people are the same, they are so selfish, puah" Pfff... They really don't know. REALLY don't know. No times. Problems. Family and friends. We have a LIFE too. We did our best for be there and be nice with everyone, and they are angry? *take the chainsaw* Come with me Eri, let's kill them.
Anyway, courage for all, you're strong, really Dear! <3
Don't give up for these fucking people and haters!

Kilioka Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Let it allllll out :iconspazhugplz: many people can relate to you, it seems. People change, as much as we don't like it. But hey, you find your real friends in the process of all this change.... and look! You made another beautiful piece of art venting it out! ^^ I hope all gets better from now on <3 I'm here if you need me :3
Kagay Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Thank you ;__;

I always try to deal with changes and to accept my friends 
the way they are, but it really offens me if those
people just can accept the way I am and what I do.
I'm just like...'than go? less stress for you and me' x__x
Kilioka Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Aww T-T I know it can be offending, and it sucks that happened to you. There are some pretty amazing people out there, sometimes hard to find but worth having around x3 things get better :D
thecrazedjester Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013
Dont think youre a jerk from doing this, it's absolutely human. From your past art and journals you've actually handled it really well. 

Keep fighting! There are people rooting for you :iconheartrollplz:
Kagay Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Thank you ;;

I will take care more for people who apprecciate me as a friend :heart:
SCHNAUT Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Hab jetzt n bissi Angst, dass ich gemeint bin, auch wenn ich nie wütend reagier oder so.
Wir ham ne Weile schon nicht mehr gequatscht und ich hab Angst, dass du wütend bist, weil ich mich seit ner Weile nicht mehr gerührt hab ;_;
Tut mir Leid, wenn ich dich wütend gemacht hab ´__`
Kagay Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Nein du bist keineswegs gemeint >___<!
Es sind einige andere Leute und es zieht sich schon länger so...
Ich bin einfach genervt davon wie wenig Verständnis oder
Mitgefühl diese Leute scheinbar haben da sie nur an sich denken,
aber bloß  nicht an die eigene Nase fassen c:
blueicedragonau Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013
I know how you feel, everything you just said is almost exactly the very words on my own mind that have been hanging there for a long time and have really been rising to the top lately.
They wonder why nice people turn cold or become hermits or the likes. It's because they keep using and abusing and when you need help they don't care. :(
I don't know you very well but I hope that things get better and that this vent art helped you a little at least.
Kagay Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Student Digital Artist
"They wonder why nice people turn cold!"
Yeah that's pretty much the point c:
They acutally know me as warm and nice person and 
can't understand why I became cold to them.
But they forced it by thier own behavior, they should finally take a look at the mirror.

I mean, I know my mistakes but we all have them and
I'm not the one who always needs to tell 'friends' what annoys me about them,
I accept my friends the way they are...

I'm sorry for you if you have similar problems ´___`
blueicedragonau Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013
Sadly half the time they don't take the hint or can't see fault in themselves or worse take it out on the ones that care for them so much.
But it's not fair to you when you accept people for who they are regardless and then they just turn around and stab you in the back or bag you out. I can safely say people like those are not your friends but the ones that really are, you'll know them because they are the only people that'll drop everything to come help or just listen to you when you just need someone to talk to.
It's really hard though when they are people you've known and called friends for years or worse family that treat you like you're the bad guy all the time and can't seem to do anything right no matter what you do.

I'll live, Might go insane at some point down the track. Just know there's a light at the end of the tunnel, even if it takes a long time to see it.
If you ever need anyone to talk to I'm more than happy to lend an ear. :)
Queen-of-Queens Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Hobbyist
I see. This is alright if you feel better because
if these asses treat you like that
then they're not friends.
True friends understand how you feel,
true friends try to help you
and true friensa don't think nor tell you "You're the bad one"

Sorry if this doesn't help you ú_ù
Kagay Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Thank you for your kind words.
And I agree with you, that 'friends' don't act like that. u__u
Queen-of-Queens Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Hobbyist
You're totally welcome.
But don't worry, the worst part is over now.
Shiranukii Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Hobbyist
It was time to roar it out!
Kagay Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Yes D;
You know what I'm talking about y__y
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